It's hard not to think about what I'm leaving in Austin. It was there that I graduated from one of the greatest institutions, met wonderful people, established lasting relationships, cultivated my beliefs and values, created great memories, and most importantly found myself. Austin and these last four years have shaped me into someone I thought I'd never get to know. I have a get deal of gratitude for everyone who had a hand in shaping the beautiful butterfly I am today.
Making the decision to return to Houston was difficult. My circumstances in Austin would have made it hard to commute, to find a job and a place live, and manage my time. With the experiences I've had and the people I know in Austin, I would have loved to have been able to stay. However, the move to Houston gives me a better opportunity to find work, save money and also to experience Houston in a different way. However, this great opportunity comes with a particular drawback.
To live with my family I have to remain in the closet. This is probably the biggest issue I have staying with my family. They can be very queerphobic and overbearing. I'm hoping to be able to find a good job soon so I can get a car and find my own place to live. I know it's going to be tough, but I'm a much stronger person compared to four years ago and I also have a greater support system. Because I know my situation is only temporary I feel that I can do this. Even though this is a hot mess of a situation, it feels good to be back.
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